I saw a puzzle on the way to the subway that caught my eye in a store front window. I was thinking of getting it for my grandpa for the father's day celebration we are doing while I am up there for a week (I leave tomorrow). I decided not to, but got on the train and still wasn't sure. I rode one stop and got off and went back to take a look at it. It was a puzzle with a pair of cardinals on a branch in winter time. I starred at it for too long without making a decision. I finally decided it wasn't worth it and left, but it was one of those strange things that happens where I can't make up my mind and go back to think some more. I rode the subway back and got off to go and see the puzzle again. I liked the red birds, a male and female, but I figured it wasn't necessary and didn't get it.

I rode east to Warden and got off to catch the bus home. At home I got some food and took it up to check my e_mail--where I am now. I got a letter from Jenn from PEI. She is feeling down and told me she may not make it to evolve this year, which would suck because I don't want to go if she isn't there.

Yesterday was strange. I had two appointments at the Clarke--one with my case manager and one with my druggist. I ended up bumping into Marie, whom I met while on the tenth floor. She had a friend on the floor and wanted me to go and visit with her. I took my script down to get filled at the pharmacy and went up with Marie. The place creeps me out more and more every time I go there. I saw too many familiar faces. The smells are too memorable to me. I stayed as long as was necessary and left. In the basement, the pharmacy was closed so I had to buzz in to get my script. Three more weeks of olanzipine 7.5 mg!

I rode the subway with Marie and we made plans to go see a movie when I get back. I am drawn to her. We have a strange bond that traces through strange times. I am so glad to be out of the hospital and I want to make sure I never go back.

I went to visit Ash at her work and buy some things. I loaded up on stuff my mom wrote on a list and got some other things that looked good. It is always nice to see Ash. We told each other that we loved them. I'm so happy to have a friend in Ashley and am so proud of her every day.

I leave tomorrow to go up to my Grandparents tree farm for a week! I have to finish packing.

PEACE - Tristan