PEACE - Tristan

PS - If you are reading this and thinking to yourself 'maybe Tristan was such a weirdo because he was unable to express his love for his father and step mother and because of this he was unable to properly express his love for me', you may be right, but if you think I'm weird for other reasons we should sit down and talk about it. Thanks.

The Letter:

Dad

Sometimes poetry is difficult to read, but once read speaks louder than common thought structuring sentences. In any case, this is what I have been finding, and I am willing to communicate it to you. My bond with you has been tried because of a few things. You and mom split up before I can remember, but as a child I was still just blindly dreaming and searching for love through my bond lines. Your marriage to Elaine was beautiful, but my love for her could not be properly expressed because I was still bonding with my mom. You, in your effort to build a stronger bond with your new wife, were torn between the bondlines, and without a safe and open environment to build love in, you suffered. Myself being young and weak probably seemed unable to cope with the pain you were showing, so you didn't share it verbally. I, however, am just a mirror and am trying to understand your pain as it is becoming the pain inside of me. I feel I understand a little bit more, but I need the avenues of expression to fully communicate. It is the expression of the pain that causes the wound to bleed and then heal. My absence from your side has caused me to seek out paternal sources beyond our lines, and they have helped, but also hurt a lot. Some are just ghosts in my head. I am ready to work harder, I have the body and mind of a man now to work with. I am pursuing my studies of interest, and this is one of them.

LOVE - Tristan